I am going to regret typing this, but it was a tough yet doable workout. I didn't feel like death until I had the spaghetti arms this afternoon :) A bit off topic, but my trainer says today, "Are you going to talk about me today?". Hey....at least I know that people are reading my blog right?! On the other hand I'd better watch what I say huh? :)
Any who.....I do feel strong. We got on the topic of working out as well as crossfit (which his explanation as to pros and cons really made sense) and I was saying how the 203+ lb me wouldn't have been able to do much of anything. There are many things that I know I can't do YET. YET being the key word.
So also during my training Tommy says "Are we going to get you to do THAT next year?" As he points to the wall where gym members competed in a natural body building competition. Immediately I say "NO WAY!". He asks me "Why not?" Then he said something that really resonated with me after I left. "It gives you a goal to attain to keep you motivated." I mean....how could I do that? I can barely sing in front of people (I am not horrible either by the way) how would I get up on stage in a skimpy bikini and pose? Even as I type it I get panicky.
Then I started thinking......"why not have that as a goal?" What scares me most is the eating. I really think I am addicted to food. Not good food either. Just junk. I know it takes a lot of dedication to clean eating and fitness.
I have a friend of mine who is really into it and has progressed amazingly this year and done great
So I guess I would need to have a plan and see what I need to do and create a goal? I don't know! But he was right. When I have a goal to accomplish I can strive for it! When I don't, I will just sit here in the middle and stay stable. That hit me because it is how I function!
So, here I am trying to figure out what I should strive for. As stated today "Don't you want to be in the best physical health/shape of your life?"
YES I DO!!!!!
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Me
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