Well, a lot has changed since then. First, I have been eating horribly and NOT working out other than my weekly training sessions. Second, I decided NOT to do the body competition next year. For me, it is not a good fit with my lifestyle at the moment.
I realized I was spending HOURS at the gym rather than with my family, and it was not what I wanted. I DO want to get healthy and I DO want to get back in shape. So, my trainer and I discussed it and he worked up a new plan for me.
Going back to basics! Starting over! Back to the beginning to get back on a good track. To be honest with you, my eating has taken the WORST toll. Back to my old ways, and it is even worse now because there is no yummy summer fruits that are local and fresh! I can feel it. I feel lazy and tired all the time. I don't feel healthy!
I really let myself slide this summer by NOT keeping up with my three times a week of running. I got lazy with it. I almost had that "I know i can do it so i don't have to prove it to myself" attitude. I let it pass by and I am angry with myself. I need to get back to it....I WILL DO IT!
I HAVE to do it! One of these years I WILL wear a two piece bathingsuit...one of these days I WILL finally feel comfortable in my own skin. I hope :)
I have to for all of the same reasons that I did it a year and a half ago! The reasons haven't changed. My desire for it hasn't changed. Mentally I need to get back with it and FAST!
Sorry for being gone for so long and thanks for reading this if you stuck with me :)
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