Enjoying the Break

It got up into the 50's today!  AAAAAAAND in two days another snow storm.  This weather here in Northeastern Ohio is out of control!  I got out a little early at work today, brought home some Chipotle for dinner, then took the kids and the dog for a walk around the block.  The kids practically ran the whole way around as I walked quickly behind with the dog.

We got home and I couldn't wait to get changed.  We got the kids in bed and I changed into my running gear and out I went!  I had a hard time, but it felt great to get out and enjoy the fresh air.  I ran 2.25 miles with a brief walk in there somewhere.

So this graph on the right here shows my time and elevation during my run and the bottom half is where my heart rate was during my run.  I was glad to stay in zone 4.

I am just so nervous about this upcoming 10k!!!  I hope I can do it!  I may see my Orthopedic specialist that helped me with my ankle when I broke it.  My knee just feels off and I think I want him to check it out.

It just feels sore and like there is something lose back there and like an air pocket.  When I was running today I could definitely feel like something was twisting wrong.  I may need a brace or something to keep it still?  Who knows, but hopefully my doctor will tell me!

I have a friend on my fitness website.  His name is Kevin.  I try to keep up with all of my friends but lately he has been such an inspiration to me.  He recently lost more weight and got past the 200lbs lost mark.  He wrote up this amazing blog comparing his journey to a job he held when he was younger.  It really resonated with me because I am at the "I'll just quit" phase in my journey even thought if I did, I know I would not only let myself down but others around me would know it!  So thank you BeingKevin .  I really needed that kick in the ass today!!  You can read his blogs HERE!

Well, tomorrow is supposed to be another gorgeous day.  I may just run a mile at lunch just to get out and enjoy it.  At least enjoy it before snow storm #2 hits!  Hope you all go out today and enjoyed the weather!  Thanks for reading!

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Me

Feeling Like A Failure

I feel this way more lately than I should.  I haven't been running....I haven't been OVER eating....just eating junk.  I feel like this sign is just flashing in front of my eyes lately.  I could list my excuses and reasons.  Thanksgiving hit, my knee hurt....I wish I would have realized I just needed new shoes.  I wish I would have done better with my eating during the holidays....so many regrets.

I started my 5k-10k app and was doing well.  HOWEVER.....my trainer has been less than helpful.  I get a decent work out on my training day, but then I am SO SORE the rest of the weekend that I feel useless.  SO, I have decided to look into another alternative.  A patient of mine recommended a friend of hers.  He went to college specifically for personal training.  Weight and diet management.  I spoke with him on the phone and just felt such a strong draw to use him as part of my training.

I go this wednesday morning and I am really excited about it.  Nervous, yet excited.

The reason for this blog post was an email that FREAKED me out!  I have only 10 weeks until my first 10k!  Holy crap!  10 weeks!?  Seriously!?  I am in full anxiety and panic mode here my friends!  Seriously 10 weeks and I can barely run 5 miles!

I guess I am just in a depressed funk tonight and I can't shake it.  I have the rest of my goal weight to get to and I just feel so lost and so confused.  I feel like it's impossible!  I am in serious need of anxiety medication tonight....and no I don't have any but I wish I did.  My mind is racing and I feel so panicky!  

Yes, I have my moments, and I am having such a hard time tonight.  Thanks for reading and I am in need of major support my friends!  I need a lot of support and encouragement and a cheering section right now! 

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Me