This is how I feel today. I am not even submitting my eating on My Fitness Pal because it was a JOKE! I came home after grocery shopping. Opened up my new Fitbit and sat down to enjoy the learning. I became so overwhelmed i started searching the cupboards. "Oooo! Cheeze Its! Oooo! Ice cream!!" It makes me so mad because I do so good and then that's all it takes. Then after that I feel so guilty and ashamed and I really beat myself up.
I should just learn from today and move on. I will, and I do. WHY do I do this to myself? FOOD IS THE DEBIL! I've said it many times and it is true. I am an emotional eater. Maybe I should go talk to someone about it? It's my fall back. Food is always there.
I drink water, I try to eat fiber and proteins to keep full. No matter how full I am I will still eat. I am so bummed about my icky day. I will make up for it tomorrow! I plan on running first thing in the morning to help me and maybe a bike ride after work.
I've got to keep at it. It is a daily struggle with ups and downs. I just have to stay strong and keep pushing!
~ <3 ~
Me
Oh DO still enter it all in MFP ... I am quite the same way, and so I have to keep my food diary private so I'll be honest. I am just way too embarrassed to have anyone look at it right now. It certainly isn't inspiring.
ReplyDeleteBut I make myself put it ALL down in my food diary. In fact, I renamed one of the categories "Completely Empty Calories" and often I have more there than I do in any of my meals :(
I do UBER exercise, and I am managing to out cardio my calories at the moment, but I know I need to improve.
See I had NO motivation today for my cardio. I am making up for it tomorrow. Ugghh just disgusted with myself :P
ReplyDeleteOh Beth...I feel ya! Between the fair yesterday and Kalahari today, I have been really bad! You will get back on track! Fight tomorrow! :)
ReplyDeleteHave you read anything by Geneen Roth? She writes really great books on women and food. Just finished "When Food is Love"- beyond being hilarious, it was really moving. http://www.geneenroth.com/books1.php
ReplyDeleteI will look into that Melissa! Thank you!
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