The Inner Crossfit Struggle and Other Struggles

**Warning - Rant Near The End**

Ok, so recently I started researching Crossfit.  My trainer doesn't like it so much, doctors don't seem to support it, and article upon article I read tells me I will become hospitalized and just fall to pieces.

On the other side, I have friends that are avid "Crossfitters" and some that go every once and awhile.  I also know people who are hard core into it and everything else sucks.

I am so confused!  There are two "Boxes" near my home.  Probably the same distance, however they have different hours.  One has later hours for WOD time and the other has them in the morning/afternoon.  Both have mandatory newbie type classes to learn technique and such so that you DON'T fall to pieces.

I feel like as much time as I put into researching, I can't find anything that makes me decide one way or the other.

On top of that I have the financial struggle.  I want so bad to start the Piyo program through BeachBody and train with my friend who has become a coach.  It's so expensive and I just can't swing it right now but I want to so bad!  OH the struggles LOL

It is so frustrating that almost daily we are bombarded with these "options" for us.  WHICH, by the way, none of them are cheap or feesable.  Why should I have to sit and say "Hmmm groceries this week or a new fitness routine?".  The one that aggravates me the most is the "Hmmm $100 for groceries, or $300 for organic pesticide free so my family can grow healthy and disease free."

WHY SHOULD WE HAVE TO MAKE THAT DECISION?!?!?!?!?!

It should be organic or bust.  We don't need bananas the size of a squirrel or watermelons the side of my 3 year old son.  I will take organic over not ANY day.  BUT.....why does it have to be so expensive.  They are making it too easy to choose the disease causing foods because it's affordable.  Because in today's times you need a double income to aid in child care, mortgages, and other expenses.  SO when it comes to your monthly expenses you have to save money.  After cutting tv, phone....you start looking elsewhere and it is TOO easy to do it to the food.

It digusts me that we live in a country so in bed with pharmaceutical companies and the government that SOMEHOW they have brainwashed a large percentage of people that live here.  Look around....how many fit people do you see?  Not as many as I would like.  When you go out to eat, why do they give you food for 4 people on your plate?

Ok, seriously I could go on and on and on.

My squirrel moment brought to you via: Our son announcing he is swinging by himself.....and he is.  Pumping his legs.  All by himself.  

Ok, so any who.  I guess I am just so overwhelmed that I don't know what to do, where to start, and what to believe.  My sensory issues are on overload and I think I am losing my mind.

If you have made it this far, I applaud you and thank you.  If you didn't, I totally get it :)

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Me

Almost Time and Progress Pic!

Well, I call the hospital tomorrow to get the time of my surgery Friday.  I am a bit nervous, but at the same time I just am anxious to get this thing over with already :)

I started researching having my tubes tied.  We have discussed and decided that we are not having any more children.  I read that 5 in 1,000 women have an unplanned pregnancy even after having their tubes tied.  Ummmm....HELLO!!!  I was 8 in 1,000 to have my Mirena fail.  I was NOT about to take that risk! 

I called my OB and he called me after hours to discuss what I wanted done and the pros and cons.  I love him.  He is an amazing doctor and just has such a calming presence.  So during our conversation he mentions the option of removing my tubes.  I was a bit hesitant but he then said "If we did that, it significantly reduces your risk of ovarian cancer."  After that, it was a done deal!  The cancer risk is fairly high in my family, so it was a no brainer!

Now onto something new.  I went back to Karate group class today!  I also went for a run once I got home.  It felt amazing!  I am going to do my "homework" tomorrow as my last moment of activity.  I am not sure how I will feel after friday.  From what I have read I will be in pain as the gasses they use to inflate my stomach for surgery break down.  I am hoping that is just Friday and I am good to go the rest of the weekend.

I re-started my couch to 5k app using it for interval training.  I haven't been super consistent with it so I doubt it has helped me much yet.  I am trying!  It is funny going back a year ago though and seeing how much farther I can go now in the same amount of time that I had last year.  It makes me happy.

Here is a new progress picture....It isn't great because I am bloated from just finishing my period and now I will be HUGE and bloated after this surgery, so I probably won't have a good one for another month or so!

 I feel like I haven't made much progress

I look leaner and more muscular however....my arms are stronger and my core is stronger....not strong enough but I am getting there.  UGGHHH.  I did start on my eating schedule with my trainer....just a few cheating days here and there but I noticed how quickly my stomach thinned out.  Someone told me it was because the foods I was eating were a natural anti-inflammatory.  Next week starts a new cycle of foods and I am anxious to get started.  4 weeks of the same foods have been driving me insane!

Ok, thanks for reading and I will try to post this weekend after surgery!

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Me

RIP Fitbit One

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! 

I was putting laundry away and noticed something felt funny on my capri pants.  YEP!  I washed and dried my Fitbit One.  I am so lost for the past week and I just haven't known what to do with myself!

I love my husband....he got a Fitbit Zip through work and offered it to me.  He uses it everyday!  He knows how much I rely on mine though and it was such a sweet gesture!  SO, I booted it up and it is all connected to my profile and all.  UGGGHHHH.  I did get in contact with fitbit but because I bought it on eBay they will not honor any warranty on it.

One day I will get another one because I really liked the set up and size of my "One".  For now to save money, he sacrificed his Fitbit so I had one to use.

They went to the Air Show today so I could stay home and organize and get things together around the house.  I haven't gotten much done (big surprise there).  I am trying though!  I haven't worked out or ran since Wednesday and I am feeling it.  However, I decently have been keeping up with the eating plan from Tommy, so that has been getting better.

It isn't as bad as I thought....it isn't easy by any means, but it isn't too awful.  I feel really full most of the time which is amazing.  I feel like I wouldn't be full at all.  Lots of greens and proteins and nuts.  Not a big fan of walnuts, but I will make due so that I can boost my body to do amazing things!

Ok, I need to get back to it, but had to share about my sad moment in losing my dear Fitbit :)

Song of The Day - "Don't" - Ed Sheeran <---- I am LOVING his music right now!

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Me