I feel this way more lately than I should. I haven't been running....I haven't been OVER eating....just eating junk. I feel like this sign is just flashing in front of my eyes lately. I could list my excuses and reasons. Thanksgiving hit, my knee hurt....I wish I would have realized I just needed new shoes. I wish I would have done better with my eating during the holidays....so many regrets.
I started my 5k-10k app and was doing well. HOWEVER.....my trainer has been less than helpful. I get a decent work out on my training day, but then I am SO SORE the rest of the weekend that I feel useless. SO, I have decided to look into another alternative. A patient of mine recommended a friend of hers. He went to college specifically for personal training. Weight and diet management. I spoke with him on the phone and just felt such a strong draw to use him as part of my training.
I go this wednesday morning and I am really excited about it. Nervous, yet excited.
The reason for this blog post was an email that FREAKED me out! I have only 10 weeks until my first 10k! Holy crap! 10 weeks!? Seriously!? I am in full anxiety and panic mode here my friends! Seriously 10 weeks and I can barely run 5 miles!
I guess I am just in a depressed funk tonight and I can't shake it. I have the rest of my goal weight to get to and I just feel so lost and so confused. I feel like it's impossible! I am in serious need of anxiety medication tonight....and no I don't have any but I wish I did. My mind is racing and I feel so panicky!
Yes, I have my moments, and I am having such a hard time tonight. Thanks for reading and I am in need of major support my friends! I need a lot of support and encouragement and a cheering section right now!
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Me
